Verse 1) Ghost of my past, ghost of my present Ghost of my future with hope in the sewer If I don't get right for the fight of my life Need a hard drive like a broken computer Don't wait for the bell, the opening Tooter Go for the suitors they full of manure Packed full of shit, y'all catching me's like Fishing with no pole, no boat, and no lure Ahead of the race with plenty of space For years I jogged like steady in place Never took off, but gentlemen watch Me take and channel millennial angst Ahh you getting it dawg We needing these little old medicine balls Stressll be lowering lifetime expectancy New smokers getting a veteran cough I'm not like my peers but one thing we share Is that look beglarin right back from the mirror The shame and disgust that's plaguing the fuck Outta anyone anywhere can't get an ear Nobody listen and nobody hears Nobody with ya and nobody cares Look in your corner and nobody there They treat you like you're just a nobody yeah Anger can rise and blow like a geyser Life is a bitch and I've grown to despise her Play hard to get but when she get the dick I poke it inside her and open her wider plus lol Give me a chance I deserve it Bet your damnedest I earned it Put a strain on myself cuz it ain't everyday you get such a passionate wordsmith I kill myself for these bars hook) Mistakes haunt me like a ghost Regrets haunt me like a ghost Failures haunt me scare and taunt me Just like a got damn ghost Verse 2) Irrational mind that's laggin behind Illogical with a capital I I'm scared of what's there for me after this life But I practically die from these habits of mine (Don't wanna turn into a ghost) How the hell can I cope Now I dwell and I smoke I swim in a pool of regret more than neck deep Watch how well that I float, I don't I sink to the bottom of a shot glass Knock Back Jack till I burn like a hot flash Got a few problems, I been trying to work em out Doing 12 oz curls in a squat rack It'll be a kick in the jock strap if I try to live When I'm missing a pot sack Go ahead and judge my dependency I commend you I'm tipping my sox hat But I'm a bum, and I'm a fuckin addict too Go through stuff I do what addicts do There ain't a damn thing that I can't abuse And there ain't no fixing my attitude I defined myself by the times I fell and hopped back up like I'm fine as hell I could hide the welts but now I'm losing weight from the stress I need a smaller size of belt Or I'm needing more calories a poor salary and mortality It sure rattles me These motherfuckin ghosts stress me out they bring the whole cavalry These ghosts these demons these souls these spirits That creep in and make up the whole of these lyrics Live inside me controlling me here If you're living like me then you're full of despair With these ghosts

Verse 1) Nights fall days change weeks fly pain stays Angst be like waves takin painstaking great lengths Not to break down it's got too late now Glad I dropped the bottle dont need shots per day now When my dad died I fell bad a landslide Man I can't lie yeah I was that guy Can't cry cast iron heart like I had pride Shoulda been in therapy not between some damn thighs Uh I first was avoiding the hurt but Fuck last names started forgetting the first ones The best and the worst buzz more of the latter Cause the more I didn't think about the more it would matter There ain't no preparing for the cloudiest days You'll never meet the boy you taught me how I should raise I'll show him how to behave, speak aloud and be brave So much better than his father in those cowardly days Hook) Its My confessional Lord forgive me I'm a sinner I did things I was living so shifty My confessional To my fam I'm sorry I promised Guess I couldn't really be the man that you wanted My confessional To my son don't blame me I'm a product of depression untreated and angry My confessional To anybody who's left I got a little more I gotta get off the chest Break) I've been a liar and a thief and a cheater and a druggie Man who the fuck I'm kidding I still feel kinda scummy Verse 2) Spent a rent check to get my story told in a booth Used to lie to my girl more than I told her the truth Couldn't catch me with a polograph not a chance I'll be damned My family trees not burning to it's smoldering roots Cause there was one time that we split talking permanent evict Wasn't curbing my drinking so much bourbon I'd be sick Worse I would treat her like it's her that's the reject My God I was nothing like a person to be with I left New year's Eve I was packed I was jacked I was smashed hours later had some freak on my lap That became a pattern of abuse I would use to excuse all the bottles that were loose in my room And the ashtrays empty weed sacks lay around Can't say that it wasn't like emotional Band-Aids The fuck would my dad think look at me back then Regrets that I have couldn't fit in a track and it's my confessional

Verse 1) The opposite of an optimist Every other days the Apocalypse My pockets got nothin but pocket lint Self conscious not self confident I got all sorts of disorders But I don't got the moral supporters At war with depression and the stress I'm a mess now I guess I'ma just go hoard in my quarters Heart break led to a dark state a rock and a hard place that's where I stay but I'm hardly Comfortable I don't run the show I'm a minnow that's been dropped in a shark tank I'm back on the cigarettes again Hackin up spitting out the phlegm Honest though man I can't promise that I won't go back to malt liquor in a can I miss the way Jack D had me I know that it's sad But it makes me happy Running from my hurdles like I made the track team Gave a fuck about the burdens they could take a backseat Self doubt still ridin shotgun Inner peace just might not come I was told hope is a dangerous drug no thanks nah uh I don't want none I quit that rather take a pill like a tic tac Than think about the way that my life took a zig zag Nobody wanna stop and smell a rose in the shit bag Dwelling on a chance that you'll never get back Me and positivity a mismatch, never be together anyway in any fashion I don't want to say that I'm a killjoy dammit but I never see my world through some rose colored glasses Refrain and hook) Oh Ohh I wanna find faith again Tryin to get away from the place I'm in To a field of dreams from a lake of sin But it's hard cause my patience is paper thin x2 If I could see the world through some rose colored glasses (rose colored glasses, rose colored glasses I never seen the world through no rose colored glasses (rose colored glasses, rose colored glasses Verse 2) What's hope to a person that's broke Or the guy that's told that his life is a joke What's optimism if you're in the hospital Knowing that disease that you got is inoperable kinda fucked up that I feel this way Like poor me heal this pain Actin like I don't got shelter or I can't get three square meals in a day I'm trying to do my best to improve my nest Till I'm losing breath Lost friends lost faith lost sight lost hope and I wonder what I'm losing next I got everything to gain to make it worth the embarrassment and shame that's inherent with my name Carrying the weight of my merit and my stake I Should let the dreams die and then bury the remains accept the fact this as good as it gets Hope lives in a zone where I couldn't exist Cause I'm way too critical, way too cynical Worst of all I might be way too forgettable Damn, so yeah, My recordings are morbid The thought of forfeit starts to look fuckin gorgeous times getting shorter and I just can't afford it Shoulda ran on a straight track like a Nordic (I,I,I…..) Identify with the pessimists Sigh with the desolate Set a bar but never measured high as the measurement Try to stretch for it I would die for what it represents Feeling satisfied in the present tense All I ever wanted was a glass half full I think somebody's pouring mine out, who's the asshole Put faith on a mantle and start pretending That I can see my future through different colored lenses….. Refrain and Hook) Oh Ohh I wanna find faith again Tryin to get away from the place I'm in To a field of dreams from a lake of sin But it's hard cause my patience is paper thin x2 If I could see the world through some rose colored glasses (rose colored glasses, rose colored glasses I never seen the world through no rose colored glasses (rose colored glasses, rose colored glasses Verse 3) My frames been broke and my lenses cracked I tried and I tried I was bending backwards zen relaxer but every last nerve has been recaptured That's the end of that Never bein positive again Thinkin that I got a winning hand A realist lean toward defeatist now I ain't a role model of a man Life got a real good right jab Hope is the corner with an ice pack A dream is that thing you agree to pay for Without ever looking at the price tag You say pessimist I say type cast Some just know where the dice land try to explain but I be trying to vain I don't really care where you might stand you could see the world through rose colored glasses I'm happy for ya don't mean I can Never sugarcoat don't polish the crap Tell it how it is when it's like that I wish I could see the world through some rose colored glasses I've never seen the world through no rose colored glasses

Damn near lost my life but I’m alive in this ish Ohh yea swear it’s so astonishin’ Yea It’s so damn crazy how my mind just keeps rewinding and ish Oh woah it’s so astonishin’ They hit my phone and asked me did I learn a lesson Yes B**** I’m blessed (B**** I’m blessed) They hit my phone and asked me did I learn my lesson Yes Get right back to the check Verse 1) Could’ve Od’ed back in ‘03, ‘06, 2012 Someone had to save me from myself Then a phoenix rose with a scheme to blow and the meanest flow Tryin not go where the demons go I got a son gotta raise him right When He pick a path let him pave it right I’m Probably not the best to teach And I think about it when I say goodnight Try to keep the bad year blues in the rearview Keep to myself, when I vent there’s an earful like solitary when you scream no one hears you outgrow these habits like a bad hairdo Yellin to the clear blue, talkin’ to the sky At least now I know where to send all these prayers to hook) Damn near lost my life but I’m alive in this ish Ohh yea swear it’s so astonishin’ Yea It’s so damn crazy how my mind just keeps rewinding and ish Oh woah it’s so astonishin’ They hit my phone and asked me did I learn a lesson Yes B**** I’m blessed (B**** I’m blessed) They hit my phone and asked me did I learn my lesson Yes Get right back to the check Verse 2) There’s no quit in my soul just a chip on the bone by my clavicle That turn me to stone when I battle ya I dabble in rattlin rappers Had it with chattin and banter Stab like a javelin dagger Back at the fact of the matter It don’t make sense how you’d wanna go against me Ya might as well go skydive with a bedsheet Try to race a Harley on a ten speed Man you’re a kayak, I’m a jetski a white belt and I’m Jet-Li I survived when I should’ve died Made it out the lions den Save the flowers and the violins cause I’m alive And I’ve become a problem when I got a pen You can’t even try to deny I’m astonishing Damn near lost my life but I’m alive in this ish Ohh yea swear it’s so astonishin’ Yea It’s so damn crazy how my mind just keeps rewinding and ish Oh woah it’s so astonishin’ They hit my phone and asked me did I learn a lesson Yes B**** I’m blessed (B**** I’m blessed) They hit my phone and asked me did I learn my lesson Yes Get right back to the check

Verse 1) The other night I woke up in a cold sweat Feeling out of my place in my own bed How I'll ever heal I don't know heck you been gone for so long I ain't let you go yet I rewind to the times we tried the rides we survived and why why why why why Couldn't we make it work for the sake of yours and the sake of mine didn't want to say goodbye I knew we coulda taken time To make it right but it's late and I got nothin but the pain inside knowin fate is my worst enemy (that could ever be) I know you're getting ready bout to move on I see you in your dress he's got a suit on Stay up late I'm drinking and I'm on your page I'm creeping baby Every picture kills me now cause you gone Hook) Oh I still see you In my dreams when I sleep nothin I can do Oh I still see you when I'm awake in my memory it kills me too Cause I know that you're happy now (happy now) And you're never turning back around I'm glad you found Someone who can make you happy now (happy now) You're never coming back around (never coming back around) Verse 2) How is it since I found your lips Still taste em everyday no matter what I try And I see your face when I wanna sleep like I got your portrait tattooed inside my eyelids Wake up and I wish you were here (in my bed) Wish you were near Why I ain't got a tissue in here Got a fistful of hair I just wish you would care ehh Shit well if you aware How I've been doing these days Tryin to get you back is like makin a snowman in a heat wave Ohh shoulda had my last name Now you're taking his can't breathe or think about a damn thing How was I supposed to know times up like fuck you were closer to my family than I was There ain't no combination of a right buzz To make me feel fine cuz Everytime I hear a lyric from back then It punch me in the spirit and I ask what happened I let you go, shoulda been grasping Let you know how I shoulda been that's a little too little too late Carved into boards from a broken home my fate and All my tears spent thinking where the years went let me be clear I'm not over you dearest Hook) Oh I still see you In my dreams when I sleep nothin I can do Oh I still see you when I'm awake in my memory it kills me too Cause I know that you're happy now (happy now) And you're never turning back around I'm glad you found Someone who can make you happy now (happy now) You're never coming back around (never coming back around) Verse 3) I messed around I regret it now I searched high and low you're the best I found No extra pounds the best sex around All I can think is what the F and how Could I screw it up, be ruinin us thought I knew it all I never knew enough Because you still give me butterflies greener grass ain't on the other side No matter what I do ain't no new beginnings Been to hell and back heard you in heaven Get me a hammer crucifix and nails I sobered up and the ship has sailed Ohh I didn't appreciate All of the ways that we'd be great I don't even blame you I wish you no harm I was mister wrong fuckin prince no Charm Shits so hard and it's been depressin The internet says you're a friend suggestion If they only knew we could never be just friends Know too much about each other never to touch and Not fall right back into the same love Were older now if you're game just say love I'll be here if the day comes that would be what dreams are made of yea