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Hook)
I never really felt so alone
I got people all around me but nobody knows
I never really felt so alone
Sometimes I wanna run but there's nowhere to go
I never really felt so alone
Ilife doesn't ever go according to plan but
I never really felt so alone
Success can't really be the measure of a man



Verse !)
I can spend my whole life searchin for a purpose
Can't come to terms jottin words don't make me a wordsmith
Still I put my strife through the mic let it play through the monitors
Pain on display for the lot of ya

A masochist you know like half of this some happy all the crappy bits
my catalysts, my hand of tricks, my baggage and my cant admits
I tell yall more in song than I would in real life
That's real I
Might be alright, but realize, that can change at the drop of a beat and I
Got a heart that's broke and a martyrs hope
Scars as old as my Starter coat
Learned so much from mistakes I've made
That my own 2 cents is a bargain yo
Its hard to cope with the bars I wrote cause I
Never feel like any part is dope
they all read like a fuckin letter to my past that I shoulda written but I didnt start the note
A letter to my exes and my ex friends
And to my self shoulda come to your senses
Years ago, too many tears ago,
Gonna get old with no funds in a pension
Damn, sometimes when I stop and think
Then I gotta wonder why I stopped the drink
Too many thoughts running through my head
Too close to the edge I'm surprised that it's not the brink

Hook)
I never really felt so alone
I got people all around me but nobody knows
I never really felt so alone
Sometimes I wanna run but there's nowhere to go
I never really felt so alone
Ilife doesn't ever go according to plan but
I never really felt so alone
Success can't really be the measure of a man



Verse 2)
Maybe the sadness never will fade
But at least now the clouds here are better than the rain and
least far as passion here an ember remains
But for now let's take a trip down memory lane


Ain't leadin the class cheated at math
Only thing I studied was a cheerleaders ass
If I could turn time like the hands on a fossil
Wouldn't been putting straight grams up the nostril
dimwitted misfit scheming to get rich quick with the spit
(Uhh)didnt work, what ya left with?
Nothin but some unpaid bills
Untreated depression
A dream that that can leave me restless
Body feels poisoned like I breathe asbestos
Maybe I just smoke like I heed a death wish
ahh
Addiction that can't be fixed
I keep it hidden now there's a kid up in the mix
stay ready stay jacked like this life
Is a never ending cage match might be no way back now
ASAP Imay act a way that they say can be traced back to days that I ain't had
Ever really seemed to recover from
Don't let today be another one
Search for a purpose under the surface
I walk a fine between all that and worthless
Uhh self consciously cocky
Handsome and ugly hateful and calm see I got too much going on at once and they talk about help I'm beyond it fuck I I

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from My Tell​-​Tale Heart, released March 7, 2020

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Matthew L. Farris Chicago, Illinois

Matthew L. Farris is not a rapper. He prefers not to be referred to as such. 
 With new releases detailing the demons of his past, he's proven to be not only versatile but resilient. His goal now, as he puts it, is to "Reach those who need to be reached". With a melancholy yet melodic tone combined with aggressive diary-like lyrics, Mathew aims to grow his niche fan base, now more than ever... ... more

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